many years ago, i remember a friend telling me ` the reason why u are so pessimistic is because u do not have God’s love in u’ i never truly understood what she meant until i came to uk about 6 years ago. going to church, bible study realised that only God can change me. [...]

gibberish rant

im so fedup with this transition state! half wished that i never made this decision…and half wished that i can just let go of all my things and fly back with just 1 suitcase…or even better- no suitcase!!! so irritating trying to distinguish what is useful and what’s not….of course i want everything, if not, [...]

i wonder

looking at pictures on facebook…i wonder. i wonder when did it start. when did it happen. when did the feeling arise. was it 5 years go? 3 years ago? a year ago? 6 months? 3 months? when? i wish i knew. but what good would it bring to me if i knew? will i feel [...]

just when you thought…

just when you thought this would be the best trip ever, it turns out to be your worst nightmare just when you thought you had everything planned out, the worst disaster comes around just when you thought you know the person inside out, she surprises you with the worst thing ever just when you thought [...]

4. traveled to prague

fulfilled my 3 years dream of going to prague but travelling there was a nightmare… we practically spent about 12hours to get there from Birmingham and I have to add on another 2 hours cos i went to Birmingham from Liverpool. It could have been better, but due to travelling wif someone that i barely [...]

9. fewest people in church celebration (21ppl)

As the title says, this year, i have experienced the fewest people ever. I have never seen such a miserable sight. We even arranged a last minute `choir’ to sing for the congregration…and guess wat, there were 11 of us in front singing and less than 10 sitting there cos there were about 4 late [...]

3weeks, 2departures, 1 death

3 weeks ago: colleagues sister died in a freak accident 2weeks ago: 2 news on people that i care alot going away 1 day ago: another news about how LCCDC is not the same LCCDC anymore anymore bad news coming in? please do it all at the same time…im tired of dealing news one by [...]

20102010

everyone was making a big fuss about this day. to me, it was just another regular day in work. so i thought. at least for the first half of the morning until my colleague had to rush home for a family emergency. initially, i just thought it must one of his 2 daughters not feeling [...]

nightmare

awake at 5am. i was screaming `mama….’ and cried badly. i’ ve never had such a vivid nightmare. right until now, 9.45am, i can still remember the details (not all though). scene 1 i was travelling with someone. a friend. we got abit moody because i read the map wrongly and we ended up somewhere [...]

luck oh luck, where art thou?

great! something tat i have been looking forward for months might not happen now. stupid me having fever at this time…2 days before i fly!! and im supposed to fly tomorrow and fever is still not goin and im forced to be in work. well, noone force me but myself now, if tomorrow my body [...]