victory is ours

i often look back and feel really embarrassed as to why i ever give in to the devil. he knows my weakness and also knows that i wish to draw near to God more than I ever wanted for the past 2 years. and so he plants thoughts into my mind, based on my weakness; [...]

6. stumble & fall, stand & fall (spiritually)

yes, that’s what i have been doing all year…. since end of year 2009, i stumbled and fell down real hard. year 2010, i vowed to stand up strong, but time after time i fall again. im ashamed of myself, but i hope that in 2011, i’ll be stronger than ever…probably stumble but not fall. [...]

nightmare

awake at 5am. i was screaming `mama….’ and cried badly. i’ ve never had such a vivid nightmare. right until now, 9.45am, i can still remember the details (not all though). scene 1 i was travelling with someone. a friend. we got abit moody because i read the map wrongly and we ended up somewhere [...]

im coming back

I just realised that it has been nearly 4 months  since i  last blogged. well, actually, i know that i havent been blogging for months cos i always see my link on susan’s page. it’s not that nothing has been happening in my life. in fact, too much  that i don’t know how to bring [...]

Be lifted high

Sin and its ways grow old All of my heart turns to stone And I’m left with no strength to arise How You need to be lifted high Sin and its ways lead to pain Left here with hurt and with shame So no longer will I leave your side Jesus, you be lifted high [...]

hopeful

Hopeful. I wonder why. I wonder why i am still hopeful even though i know it is impossible. I know very well how being hopeful made me felt extremely down. It is the feeling whereby u have been looking forward to something for a long long time, and when it was so near, just when [...]

20082009

*wrote some things here a while ago. but dunno why donkey wordpress didnt save it and it’s all gone. because it is all spontaneous thoughts on my spiritual life, i can’t type it all out again. sorry for this empty space. just know that i’m standing up once more*

Father’s song

D                                          C                                     Em Father, hear me when I …call on Your name Em                       G                        Asus-A I need You to answer me now D                              C                                     Em Father, here I am…… weak in Your sight Em               G                        Asus-A can You rescue me now?  Bm              A          A7                    D               G I’m crying out  can’t figure it out on my [...]

why? whY?? WHYYYY??

why is it always like that? why are YOU always like that? why do YOU like to mess  with me? why do YOU like to play a fool on me? why do YOU linger around like you are part of me? I have nothing to do with YOU. LEAVE ME ALONE!!! …………………………. ……………………. ……………….. ……………. [...]

unworthy feeling

Pastor J emailed a week earlier asking me and some youth to take part in Merseyside Radio broadcast. the youth are to sing a song or something and i am to give a short testimony (2mins).  Although it’s only 2 mins, but i feel uneasy about broadcasting my testimony. i feel unworthy to share my [...]